Not long after I started college, I ended up in the Dean of my school's office crying. I complained to him that I was not getting cast in any of the student productions, despite what I thought were great auditions. It was the same people getting cast over and over again. And I was feeling like perhaps I had chosen the wrong field, but I couldn't think of anything else to do, because this was all I
wanted to do. He sternly informed me that I was being a baby, that if I really wanted to, I could act in anything I wanted to. But I'd have to be willing to look stupid to do it. If I wanted work, it seemed clear to both him and I that I'd have to create it.
So, I applied for a spot in the student run production line-up saying I was going to direct a show. I got the spot, and then I cast myself. Unheard of, and pretty stupid too. And I'm not going to pretend the show was any good. It wasn't. But I worked consistently, and perhaps too often from that point forward and never had to cast myself again.
I see a parallel here somewhere. Artists get a lot of flak for being unorganized, unmotivated, and basically too emotional and weird to actually be able to run a business. But when I look around Chicago, what I find are a bunch of artists not only willing, but also quite capable of running the administration and art of their companies.
There is a lot of discussion in the blogosphere (what a word) about whether this phenomenon of artists doing administrative work has a positive or negative impact on the theatre community and even more debate about those people who do it all for free and the companies that allow them to. Of course, there is much discussion from my company about this as well. But I confess, after all the arguing, for many it comes down to: "It's worth it to me."